2011-04-29 - 10:50 a.m.

Promises seem hard for me to keep these days. I chalk it up to being incredibly busy but I'm also letting things slide when I COULD be taking care of them.

This entry is an example. I have stacks of charts I should take care of but would rather write a dland note. Not because I'm too busy to do those charts but because I would rather do this. So, it is not that I don't want to keep readers here up to date on my activities, it more that other things have taken priority.

I promised to give an update of what is going on. In a nutshell it is this. The warden is still living at home. The condo in Florida (I saw it and its' very nice) was a short sale and worse. The condo complex has a law suit with its insurer and it appears that one can not get a loan on any of the condos as long as that is the case. So, it appears that, after waiting nearly a year, waiting for her to move out, the search is starting over.

During that year I have tried to not send mixed messages but I believe I have been only partially successful.

She still sleeps in the guest room unless we have company, but I do not think she believes that I am seriously think devorse. Every day that goes by without a fight seems to give her more vision about us staying together, which is not my intent.

My lover is wonderful and is not pushing but I know it hurts her to have to hide our relationship. I am fully aware that this can not drag on forever without her moving away from me. I guess it is a testament to the fact that she really does love me that she has not done that already.

I now have to get back to work but I hope this short entry will give at least some view of what is going on.